"Creative Insomnia"

Last night I couldn't fall asleep. I listened to The Young Romans over and over and over again. My brain was stuffed completely full, of dance and music and choreography and this coming year and Julliard. When I finally fell asleep I dreamt of wasps that could swim and this beautiful clear water. I woke up at 5 and tried to fall back asleep, but by 6 I gave up and got out of bed. I jotted down notes for my choreography, looked up scholarships, read scriptures, and changed my FB profile picture. Changing that picture held some kind of great significance. I was afraid to put it up at first...but when I did I found why I needed to; because I am, in a way, announcing my determination to fight for what I want. New York City is my back picture, I will audition for Julliard and I will go there. I feel this hot little flame in my chest and it makes me feel strong. I called mom this morning and told her about all this. She always wakes up in the middle of the night and does stuff. I will allow all of this creative energy come when it likes, even in the middle of the night. Heavenly Father, thank you. For everything.